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Day 45 June 1, 2022
Slept six hours I slept off and on last night I kept waking up I think I had bad dreams, But with the trazodone I can’t tell whether I dream or not. I just felt like I had nightmares! Ran downstairs and got my phone at 5:30 AM. I have my phone until 630 and…
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Day 37 May 24,2022
“We loose the fear of making decisions, great and small; that we realize that should our choice be wrong we can, if we will, learn from experience.” – Bill W *My Family Scuplt Today Slept 5.5 hours, it’s 3:30 AM I have so much anxiety, not even the anxiety meds seem to be helping. They…
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Day 43 May 30,2022
I slept 5 1/2 hours. It’s 3:40 AM I’m exhausted and tired, sad, anxious, nervous, and depressed! I feel I feel like I just got here to Desicion Point all over again, with all the unknowing, as when I just arrived. I am not nervous to leave here. It is easy to not want to…
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Day 35 May 22, 2022
Slept eight hours it’s 4:50 AM 10 days left and so much to do. One thing at a time, Shannon! Today is our foe anniversary. The day Mike and I exchanged our vows formally in front of friends and family. I wore a gorgeous dress and everything was perfect… Caterers, cake, music! I was gorgeous,…
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Day 34 May 21, 2022
“There is no scarcity of opportunity to make a living at what you love; there is a scarcity to make it happen.” – Wayne Dryer Step five. Five hours and it’s 3:40 AM. Last night was so peaceful! I went over to Avni’s apartment for about two hours. She made pizza and we just watched…
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Day 32 May 19, 2022
I slept 7 1/2 hours feels great. It’s 5:40 AM so yeah a little bit late. Was supposed to work out, but too much to do since I slept in so late today. Apartment clean, laundry started. Tracie has strep throat so I am super careful in our apartment. 8:20 AM to 8:50 AM daily…
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April 10 through April 17
I think I slept but maybe only a little bit cut me off my drunken haze all I can remember is that I slap my son don’t do a huge argument with my husband tried to run away from the police and was arrested.I was in a jail cell with three other women I’ll talking…
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My Journey to Recovery And Finding Myself
My posts are raw and so personal. All of my entries are true Heartaches and triumphs of my recovery. I destroyed my beautiful life, broke my loving husband and shattered my beautiful little boy. I will recover. I have hope that not all is lost. I am stronger than I think.. I like my friend…
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11 months and 25 days…
I tried to write this post since it was just 11 months. I almost feel bad that I am not sad! In five more days it’ll be a year. I didn’t think I’d make it this far at all. I didn’t think I’d even be here to be writing this but here I am. I…
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10 months and four days
Snowing here in Prescott, Arizona. I love the snow it’s so clean and it’s like getting a new slate every time it happens. It has been a long journey getting here, but that’s OK. At some point I just started waking up on the right side of the bed. I’m not sad.there’s joy. There’s happiness,…
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Nine months five days
Happy, Sober Sunday! it’s been a relaxing weekend. I’ve done a lot of writing which is important to me. I want to finish this book years ago. I guess I was busy doing other things not focused I do have a lot of time on my hands that is true. True with all that’s taken…
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Nine months and one day
Yesterday was hard. There were a lot of triggers. I just buried myself in Books and research and writing. Some days are hard like that.They do get fewer and fewer in between, however. I was strong. I am strong. I just wish there were something magical way to make the hurt go away. I am…
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I AM…..
Resilient, Facetious, Felicitous I say this because I have made it through so many obstacles in my way thus far in my 8 1/2 months of recovery. I’m doing great being sober, somedays I’m thrown curveballs. I’ve learned to live with less but want more spiritually…Yoga and Meditation. I’ve learned to relax my ego on…
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I AM…..
Resilient, Facetious, Felicitous I say this because I have made it through so many obstacles in my way thus far in my 8 1/2 months of recovery. I’m doing great being sober, somedays I’m thrown curveballs. I’ve learned to live with less but want more spiritually…Yoga and Meditation. I’ve learned to relax my ego on…
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Day 156 September 19, 2022
Well conciliation counseling was today at 10 AM. It did not go well not for me anyway. Might listen to the mediators discussion of what we discussed and basically said “I hope she has a nice life with her sobriety“. That’s it! No explanation as to why he said he wanted to reconcile and he’s…
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Day 154 September 17, 2022
Today is recovery day or an I am with The booth for the house I’m at. Living in sober living especially this Sober Living is a lot different than before we laugh, we get angry at ourselves, but most of all we’re all open with each other. All the girls at my house aren’t afraid…
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Day 152 September 15, 2022
Giving up some control in allowing someone else to take the reins and just relax. I have a really hard time with that and I think for the most part that’s what’s gotten me in the most trouble. I stopped drinking but I seem to have fucked everything up more than I did when I…
Faith in Me, Hope for My Future & Love of My Life 