shannysuntanny
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Day 45 June 1, 2022
Slept six hours I slept off and on last night I kept waking up I think I had bad dreams, But with the trazodone I can’t tell whether I dream or not. I just felt like I had nightmares! Ran downstairs and got my phone at 5:30 AM. I have my phone until 630 and…
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Day 37 May 24,2022
“We loose the fear of making decisions, great and small; that we realize that should our choice be wrong we can, if we will, learn from experience.” – Bill W *My Family Scuplt Today Slept 5.5 hours, it’s 3:30 AM I have so much anxiety, not even the anxiety meds seem to be helping. They…
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Day 43 May 30,2022
I slept 5 1/2 hours. It’s 3:40 AM I’m exhausted and tired, sad, anxious, nervous, and depressed! I feel I feel like I just got here to Desicion Point all over again, with all the unknowing, as when I just arrived. I am not nervous to leave here. It is easy to not want to…
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Day 35 May 22, 2022
Slept eight hours it’s 4:50 AM 10 days left and so much to do. One thing at a time, Shannon! Today is our foe anniversary. The day Mike and I exchanged our vows formally in front of friends and family. I wore a gorgeous dress and everything was perfect… Caterers, cake, music! I was gorgeous,…
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Day 34 May 21, 2022
“There is no scarcity of opportunity to make a living at what you love; there is a scarcity to make it happen.” – Wayne Dryer Step five. Five hours and it’s 3:40 AM. Last night was so peaceful! I went over to Avni’s apartment for about two hours. She made pizza and we just watched…
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Day 32 May 19, 2022
I slept 7 1/2 hours feels great. It’s 5:40 AM so yeah a little bit late. Was supposed to work out, but too much to do since I slept in so late today. Apartment clean, laundry started. Tracie has strep throat so I am super careful in our apartment. 8:20 AM to 8:50 AM daily…
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April 10 through April 17
I think I slept but maybe only a little bit cut me off my drunken haze all I can remember is that I slap my son don’t do a huge argument with my husband tried to run away from the police and was arrested.I was in a jail cell with three other women I’ll talking…
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My Journey to Recovery And Finding Myself
My posts are raw and so personal. All of my entries are true Heartaches and triumphs of my recovery. I destroyed my beautiful life, broke my loving husband and shattered my beautiful little boy. I will recover. I have hope that not all is lost. I am stronger than I think.. I like my friend…
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Day 91 July 17, 2022
My Daily Focus How am I mentally? Emotionally anguished – Beaten – sad – a constant sad How am I physically? Rested, I feel strong, strong enough to push through another day How many spiritually? Still thinking about yesterday – but many prayers What are my goals? Blogging right/step two and three in Dharma What…
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90 days July 16, 2022
On the bus with my bike headed to meet Chris for IOP. I will give Mike an ROI – even though I’ll doubt he’ll use it. It will cost me $1000 I will need to pay monthly. It’s a 90 day program. I’m really committed to my sobriety. so I will stay at sober living…
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Day 88 July 14, 2022
Threading is clear as day on the wall. My heart is broken. I am getting a divorce. House meeting No food in the room Clean rooms and make beds Have humility Pray to humility it will make you feel better Humility : not thinking less of yourself is thinking of yourself less!
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Day 86 July 12, 2022
I miss my loves. It is so very painful! Ghastly feeling in my whole body – I can’t read the fucking papers without anxiety so hi I am shaking. I started coloring again just to call myself. I’m going to email Mike. I’m going to ask he not sign those papers for a year. Just…
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Day 85 July 11, 2022
Today is my son’s birthday! He is 14 years old today! He was a tough cookie to get into this world… All aspects including the 18 hours of labor I took! However I bake that gorgeous cookie just right amount of time. He is amazing! He definitely looks a lot like his dad, but he…
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Day 83 July 8, 2022
Interview at Lowe’s at 1 PM will be late because I missed the bus I tried to watch TV I tried to listen to music 2 PM interview with Casa Grande trying to figure out my life and I can’t – it’s so bad. It didn’t have to be like this why couldn’t I drive…
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Day 82 July 7, 2022
Realizing where I was on the floor of the living room/carpet looking up at the cheap ceiling fan – wondering where I am and why I’m here…
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July 6, 2022
I worked on my blog – sent Mike a text about letting him and the blog I did/am working on. Don’t know if you read it? Hoping he does read it. He will read and see that I love him and I need him not financially. I am heartbroken again. What can I do? He…
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Day 79 July 5, 2022
Did a few blogs today. Did some interviews online. It was productive and got resumes out. Hopeful for jobs. Got a job offer but not as good as I thought. I did some reading on step 42. I decided I put it off long enough and I went to look at my divorce papers. What…
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Day 78 July 4, 2022
What a shitty day. I know I haven’t been writing as consistently as I should, but I’ve been preoccupied by my blog – getting that written and posted I’m trying to catch up with them now and present on my blog. It is quite a daunting or seemingly daunting task. I don’t think anyone has…
Faith in Me, Hope for My Future & Love of My Life 