shannysuntanny
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Day 45 June 1, 2022
Slept six hours I slept off and on last night I kept waking up I think I had bad dreams, But with the trazodone I can’t tell whether I dream or not. I just felt like I had nightmares! Ran downstairs and got my phone at 5:30 AM. I have my phone until 630 and…
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Day 37 May 24,2022
“We loose the fear of making decisions, great and small; that we realize that should our choice be wrong we can, if we will, learn from experience.” – Bill W *My Family Scuplt Today Slept 5.5 hours, it’s 3:30 AM I have so much anxiety, not even the anxiety meds seem to be helping. They…
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Day 43 May 30,2022
I slept 5 1/2 hours. It’s 3:40 AM I’m exhausted and tired, sad, anxious, nervous, and depressed! I feel I feel like I just got here to Desicion Point all over again, with all the unknowing, as when I just arrived. I am not nervous to leave here. It is easy to not want to…
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Day 35 May 22, 2022
Slept eight hours it’s 4:50 AM 10 days left and so much to do. One thing at a time, Shannon! Today is our foe anniversary. The day Mike and I exchanged our vows formally in front of friends and family. I wore a gorgeous dress and everything was perfect… Caterers, cake, music! I was gorgeous,…
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Day 34 May 21, 2022
“There is no scarcity of opportunity to make a living at what you love; there is a scarcity to make it happen.” – Wayne Dryer Step five. Five hours and it’s 3:40 AM. Last night was so peaceful! I went over to Avni’s apartment for about two hours. She made pizza and we just watched…
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Day 32 May 19, 2022
I slept 7 1/2 hours feels great. It’s 5:40 AM so yeah a little bit late. Was supposed to work out, but too much to do since I slept in so late today. Apartment clean, laundry started. Tracie has strep throat so I am super careful in our apartment. 8:20 AM to 8:50 AM daily…
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April 10 through April 17
I think I slept but maybe only a little bit cut me off my drunken haze all I can remember is that I slap my son don’t do a huge argument with my husband tried to run away from the police and was arrested.I was in a jail cell with three other women I’ll talking…
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My Journey to Recovery And Finding Myself
My posts are raw and so personal. All of my entries are true Heartaches and triumphs of my recovery. I destroyed my beautiful life, broke my loving husband and shattered my beautiful little boy. I will recover. I have hope that not all is lost. I am stronger than I think.. I like my friend…
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Day 104 July 29, 2022
Just for today narcotics anonymous expectations basic tax 32 “as you realize or need to be forgiven, we tend to be more forgiving “ Our behavior toward other people in our life as a mayor of our behavior toward ourselves. When we demand perfection of ourselves we come to demand it from others around us,…
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Day 103 July 28, 2022
I don’t know where I missed a date or a day but somehow I did. So we are a little bit more ahead than we thought. Acknowledge your fears by Melody Beattie Morning meditation at 6:45 AM what are my fears? I’m living in fear and fighting through my fears right now. What the fuck!…
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Day 100 July 27, 2022
“We believe our one time good characters will be revived the moment we stop drinking alcohol “– anonymous Good morning, Shannon! Happy 100th day sober today! Well no one knows no one’s here to celebrate with me I go to work today from 1:30 to 10:30 PM at Lowe’s. I know I haven’t done it…
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Day 99 July 26, 2022
FORGIVENESS I’m not the first to forgive, to hold a grudge. But I expect those around me to forgive me right away. Normally, Mike doesn’t forgive right away – he eventually does – but not this time. I’m writing so much about him. I know he will never forgive me – he may let go,…
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Day 97 July 24, 2022
I still have yet to unpack at this new place. My alarm went off at 4 AM I woke up at 5 AM. Everyone does seem fairly nice. I started to do my chore and since today was deep clean I got a new chore. Funny I was assigned a chore I didn’t even have…
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Day 96 July 23, 2022
So I’m really in a bad place. I don’t like it here at all. I would have preferred my car – anywhere but where I have landed! I keep getting lower and lower! Mike allowed me so much! He works so hard I wouldn’t be where I am at now! I can’t even pay the…
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Day 95 July 21, 2022
I do miss Mike and Connor desperately today. I can see their faces a Animated while and a fun conversation. A conversation I am having myself – with myself in my own mind. That makes me so happy. I am keeping my nose clean and squares tomorrow I need to ask hopefully given the chance…
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Day 94 July 20, 2022
What is something you hope you are still able to do when you are advanced in years. Good people will prosper like palm trees, grow tall like Lebanon cedars; transplanted to gods courtyard the grow taller and presence of God, lithe and Green, Vivle Still in old age. Psalm 92:12–14 Walks and hikes with my…
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Day 93 July 19, 2022
I’m going to start or at least try something new! My prayers for the day. So I can put everything out into the universe. Celebrate each day whether it be learning something new or just a learning curve or just out of sheer necessity to just get up and make it through the day! This…
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Day 92 July 18, 2022
“If he didn’t need you in your absence then he never Needed you when you were present. “ I slept 2 1/2 hours. I’m not as tired as he would think for only sleeping 2 1/2 hours. My anxiety is through the roof! Black and white checkered flag through the roof. I stayed up until…
Faith in Me, Hope for My Future & Love of My Life 