shannysuntanny
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Day 45 June 1, 2022
Slept six hours I slept off and on last night I kept waking up I think I had bad dreams, But with the trazodone I can’t tell whether I dream or not. I just felt like I had nightmares! Ran downstairs and got my phone at 5:30 AM. I have my phone until 630 and…
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Day 37 May 24,2022
“We loose the fear of making decisions, great and small; that we realize that should our choice be wrong we can, if we will, learn from experience.” – Bill W *My Family Scuplt Today Slept 5.5 hours, it’s 3:30 AM I have so much anxiety, not even the anxiety meds seem to be helping. They…
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Day 43 May 30,2022
I slept 5 1/2 hours. It’s 3:40 AM I’m exhausted and tired, sad, anxious, nervous, and depressed! I feel I feel like I just got here to Desicion Point all over again, with all the unknowing, as when I just arrived. I am not nervous to leave here. It is easy to not want to…
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Day 35 May 22, 2022
Slept eight hours it’s 4:50 AM 10 days left and so much to do. One thing at a time, Shannon! Today is our foe anniversary. The day Mike and I exchanged our vows formally in front of friends and family. I wore a gorgeous dress and everything was perfect… Caterers, cake, music! I was gorgeous,…
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Day 34 May 21, 2022
“There is no scarcity of opportunity to make a living at what you love; there is a scarcity to make it happen.” – Wayne Dryer Step five. Five hours and it’s 3:40 AM. Last night was so peaceful! I went over to Avni’s apartment for about two hours. She made pizza and we just watched…
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Day 32 May 19, 2022
I slept 7 1/2 hours feels great. It’s 5:40 AM so yeah a little bit late. Was supposed to work out, but too much to do since I slept in so late today. Apartment clean, laundry started. Tracie has strep throat so I am super careful in our apartment. 8:20 AM to 8:50 AM daily…
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April 10 through April 17
I think I slept but maybe only a little bit cut me off my drunken haze all I can remember is that I slap my son don’t do a huge argument with my husband tried to run away from the police and was arrested.I was in a jail cell with three other women I’ll talking…
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My Journey to Recovery And Finding Myself
My posts are raw and so personal. All of my entries are true Heartaches and triumphs of my recovery. I destroyed my beautiful life, broke my loving husband and shattered my beautiful little boy. I will recover. I have hope that not all is lost. I am stronger than I think.. I like my friend…
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Day 120 August 13, 2022
So after I got dropped off by The paramedic my old friend Michael picked me up and loaded my stuff in the back of his SUV and we sat and talked for a bit then we went and had coffee and he dropped me off so I could take the parenting class. Sitting in the…
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Dad 119 August 12, 2022
At least I have all my vitamins. I have a couple Kratom pills. I took two of them trying to stabilize my mood I won’t be able to see the psych nurse until the 15th or 17th I can’t remember so I can get my medication refilled. tonight’s the house meeting and I have to…
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Day 118 August 11, 2022
Finally got paid. So I could go get a rental car. Mike’s attorney said I couldn’t pick up my computer and laptop on that day as they weren’t available. Still trying to get my phone from Tracie but I can’t seem to get a hold of her. So I’m on my way to Mesa to…
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Day 111/112 August 5, 2022 – August 6, 2022
Woke up at 5 AM. Abigail‘s alarm had been going off for some time – and it was time for me to get up to – I suppose! I need to get a few things done I’ve called Avni and Tracie that needed to be done. I need to unload the dishwasher and reload the…
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Day 110 August 4, 2022
So here I sit in a hotel room in Ashfork without a phone to get a ride anywhere. I need to get my shit together. I feel like I did when I moved to San Diego. Constantly helpless. If it wasn’t bad luck I’d have no luck is what my friends used to say to…
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Day 109 August 3, 2022
Unreal to get to airport terminal four, so I can get to Preskett. I need to go to the courthouse for parenting class sign up. Then go to the police department to get truck and boxes. Hopefully I will get to talk to Mike? Probably very doubtful. I can wish though! I wonder if he…
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Day 108 August 2, 2022
I’m trying not to worry about my future just because I may have ruined my life. Trying to see the possibilities of being alone my whole life from now on. What will I do, where will I go, how the fuck would I get there. What things can make me happy? Because God would not…
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Day 107 August 1, 2022
Narcotics anonymous just for today basic text page 7 “our addiction enslaved us. We were prisoners of our own mind and were condemned by our own guilt. “ Guilt is one of the most commonly encountered stumbling blocks in recovery. One of the more notorious forms of guilt is the self-loathing that results when we…
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Day 106 July 31, 2022
Didn’t sleep last night but that’s OK got a few things many actually accomplished. Still need to write Mike a letter and Connor another two letters. How am I feeling mentally? Still riveted from last night How am I physically? I look good in that great How am I spiritually? Not well What are my…
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Day 105 July 30, 2022
Regular inventory just for today basic text 42 “continuing to take a personal inventory means that we form a habit of looking at ourselves our actions attitudes and relationships on a regular basis. “ Taking a regular inventory means is a key element in our new pattern of living. In our addiction, we examine ourselves…
Faith in Me, Hope for My Future & Love of My Life 