shannysuntanny
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Day 45 June 1, 2022
Slept six hours I slept off and on last night I kept waking up I think I had bad dreams, But with the trazodone I can’t tell whether I dream or not. I just felt like I had nightmares! Ran downstairs and got my phone at 5:30 AM. I have my phone until 630 and…
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Day 37 May 24,2022
“We loose the fear of making decisions, great and small; that we realize that should our choice be wrong we can, if we will, learn from experience.” – Bill W *My Family Scuplt Today Slept 5.5 hours, it’s 3:30 AM I have so much anxiety, not even the anxiety meds seem to be helping. They…
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Day 43 May 30,2022
I slept 5 1/2 hours. It’s 3:40 AM I’m exhausted and tired, sad, anxious, nervous, and depressed! I feel I feel like I just got here to Desicion Point all over again, with all the unknowing, as when I just arrived. I am not nervous to leave here. It is easy to not want to…
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Day 35 May 22, 2022
Slept eight hours it’s 4:50 AM 10 days left and so much to do. One thing at a time, Shannon! Today is our foe anniversary. The day Mike and I exchanged our vows formally in front of friends and family. I wore a gorgeous dress and everything was perfect… Caterers, cake, music! I was gorgeous,…
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Day 34 May 21, 2022
“There is no scarcity of opportunity to make a living at what you love; there is a scarcity to make it happen.” – Wayne Dryer Step five. Five hours and it’s 3:40 AM. Last night was so peaceful! I went over to Avni’s apartment for about two hours. She made pizza and we just watched…
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Day 32 May 19, 2022
I slept 7 1/2 hours feels great. It’s 5:40 AM so yeah a little bit late. Was supposed to work out, but too much to do since I slept in so late today. Apartment clean, laundry started. Tracie has strep throat so I am super careful in our apartment. 8:20 AM to 8:50 AM daily…
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April 10 through April 17
I think I slept but maybe only a little bit cut me off my drunken haze all I can remember is that I slap my son don’t do a huge argument with my husband tried to run away from the police and was arrested.I was in a jail cell with three other women I’ll talking…
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My Journey to Recovery And Finding Myself
My posts are raw and so personal. All of my entries are true Heartaches and triumphs of my recovery. I destroyed my beautiful life, broke my loving husband and shattered my beautiful little boy. I will recover. I have hope that not all is lost. I am stronger than I think.. I like my friend…
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Day 151 September 14, 2022
So I’ve been doing a lot of thinking on how I wanna approach this conciliation. I don’t even know if Mike will say anything to me. Or if you have more demands or if you won’t offer anything at all. I have to be OK with this. I texted my mom today and told her…
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Daya 150 Five Months Today September 13, 2022
A lot of crazy things have happened. Apparently yesterday I was supposed to show up to the hearing but I had no documentation that I needed to be at the temporary orders hearing. So it was dismissed. I will redo it. I called an attorney that applied to my case on a website for lawyers.…
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Day 137 September 1, 2022
Good morning it’s a new month and great things will happen! My letters are written and my job is set up! I’m ready for work September 6, 2022! I must tell Jenna today! She has a friend and I don’t want to lie to her. I have to memorize a seven step poem for Sustany…
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Day 135 August 30, 2022
Sitting at Valero behavioral health. I came in today to enroll in classes and luckily I’m already going through their intake process. So that’s great I’m signing up for therapy, EOP which stands for extended outpatient program, and a psychiatrist. I’m so excited to get some things accomplished I wanted to. I didn’t know how…
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Day 131 August 26, 2022
Woke up at 5 AM. Went to bed at 10 PM. Worked yesterday for American made in Prescott cleaning houses so I can pay for Sustany house rent I needed something because I really like it here. I feel safe. Safe like I did it Decision Point. The owner is so amazing! she actually got…
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Day 131 August 25, 2022
Arrived at Sustany Sober Living at 6 PM on August 23, 2022. Michael drove me here after doing some errands. I needed to get my laptop and passport and Social Security card from Mike’s attorneys office, and I needed to get my things from the Oxford house. Oxford house was a fiasco. They wouldn’t give…
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Day 126 August 20, 2022
I got the job at Kohl’s Dash store support lead! I am fucking stoked – job doesn’t start for two weeks those September 6! So I need something in the meantime. I need to call Sustany Sober Living and see what they will say! IOP is said as soon as I can drive or find…
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Day 122 to August 15, 2022
Monday morning at the campsite with Michael. I need to figure out my life. I can’t live like this. I have a job interview, my second, with Kohl’s and Prescott Valley. I hope I can get it and that Dave Seymour calls me back. I need to get another Sober Living. I need a job,…
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Day 121 August 14, 2022
I’m just sad today. Michael’s trying to engage in conversations and I just can’t. He tries really hard to be uplifting and upbeat I just I just can’t engage.
Faith in Me, Hope for My Future & Love of My Life 