shannysuntanny
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My Journey to Recovery And Finding Myself
My posts are raw and so personal. All of my entries are true Heartaches and triumphs of my recovery. I destroyed my beautiful life, broke my loving husband and shattered my beautiful little boy. I will recover. I have hope that not all is lost. I am stronger than I think.. I like my friend…
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Day 45 June 1, 2022
Slept six hours I slept off and on last night I kept waking up I think I had bad dreams, But with the trazodone I can’t tell whether I dream or not. I just felt like I had nightmares! Ran downstairs and got my phone at 5:30 AM. I have my phone until 630 and…
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Day 37 May 24,2022
“We loose the fear of making decisions, great and small; that we realize that should our choice be wrong we can, if we will, learn from experience.” – Bill W *My Family Scuplt Today Slept 5.5 hours, it’s 3:30 AM I have so much anxiety, not even the anxiety meds seem to be helping. They…
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Day 43 May 30,2022
I slept 5 1/2 hours. It’s 3:40 AM I’m exhausted and tired, sad, anxious, nervous, and depressed! I feel I feel like I just got here to Desicion Point all over again, with all the unknowing, as when I just arrived. I am not nervous to leave here. It is easy to not want to…
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Day 35 May 22, 2022
Slept eight hours it’s 4:50 AM 10 days left and so much to do. One thing at a time, Shannon! Today is our foe anniversary. The day Mike and I exchanged our vows formally in front of friends and family. I wore a gorgeous dress and everything was perfect… Caterers, cake, music! I was gorgeous,…
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Day 34 May 21, 2022
“There is no scarcity of opportunity to make a living at what you love; there is a scarcity to make it happen.” – Wayne Dryer Step five. Five hours and it’s 3:40 AM. Last night was so peaceful! I went over to Avni’s apartment for about two hours. She made pizza and we just watched…
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Day 32 May 19, 2022
I slept 7 1/2 hours feels great. It’s 5:40 AM so yeah a little bit late. Was supposed to work out, but too much to do since I slept in so late today. Apartment clean, laundry started. Tracie has strep throat so I am super careful in our apartment. 8:20 AM to 8:50 AM daily…
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April 10 through April 17
I think I slept but maybe only a little bit cut me off my drunken haze all I can remember is that I slap my son don’t do a huge argument with my husband tried to run away from the police and was arrested.I was in a jail cell with three other women I’ll talking…
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April 18, 2022 A Letter to My Husband And my Son
Love has 100 gentle ends. – Leonora Speyer Letter’s Never Sent: Dear Loves, It’s the first day and I made it. I did it. Making the commitment. I will write you both Every night to tell you about my day. I know you’ll never read my letters, but I’m hoping one day they will be…
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Day 2 April 19, 2022
“…I was taught that the way of progress is neither swift nor easy.” Marie Curie I slept three hours it’s now very early in the morning 428 to be exact is when I woke up. The sleep machine or white noise machine it helps but not enough. I woke up with the overwhelming and heavy…
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Day 1 April 18, 2022 In Patient Treatment
The pain of love is the pain of being alive. It’s a perpetual wound.”– Maureen Duffy No sleep. Wrote a letter to Mike for him when he picks up the F350. I left went to Walgreens pick up Mascara and arrived at 10 am to check myself in to an In-Patient Treatment Facility. There is…
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It Happened to Me
On April 9, 2022, started out as a great day. I woke up early. Started watching the home edit. Mike woke up and we watched it together had some coffee. Connor got a mic made that poor kid watch an episode because it was about organizing. He has a 13-year-old boy organization is not a…
Faith in Me, Hope for My Future & Love of My Life 