shannysuntanny
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Day 45 June 1, 2022
Slept six hours I slept off and on last night I kept waking up I think I had bad dreams, But with the trazodone I can’t tell whether I dream or not. I just felt like I had nightmares! Ran downstairs and got my phone at 5:30 AM. I have my phone until 630 and…
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Day 37 May 24,2022
“We loose the fear of making decisions, great and small; that we realize that should our choice be wrong we can, if we will, learn from experience.” – Bill W *My Family Scuplt Today Slept 5.5 hours, it’s 3:30 AM I have so much anxiety, not even the anxiety meds seem to be helping. They…
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Day 43 May 30,2022
I slept 5 1/2 hours. It’s 3:40 AM I’m exhausted and tired, sad, anxious, nervous, and depressed! I feel I feel like I just got here to Desicion Point all over again, with all the unknowing, as when I just arrived. I am not nervous to leave here. It is easy to not want to…
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Day 35 May 22, 2022
Slept eight hours it’s 4:50 AM 10 days left and so much to do. One thing at a time, Shannon! Today is our foe anniversary. The day Mike and I exchanged our vows formally in front of friends and family. I wore a gorgeous dress and everything was perfect… Caterers, cake, music! I was gorgeous,…
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Day 34 May 21, 2022
“There is no scarcity of opportunity to make a living at what you love; there is a scarcity to make it happen.” – Wayne Dryer Step five. Five hours and it’s 3:40 AM. Last night was so peaceful! I went over to Avni’s apartment for about two hours. She made pizza and we just watched…
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Day 32 May 19, 2022
I slept 7 1/2 hours feels great. It’s 5:40 AM so yeah a little bit late. Was supposed to work out, but too much to do since I slept in so late today. Apartment clean, laundry started. Tracie has strep throat so I am super careful in our apartment. 8:20 AM to 8:50 AM daily…
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April 10 through April 17
I think I slept but maybe only a little bit cut me off my drunken haze all I can remember is that I slap my son don’t do a huge argument with my husband tried to run away from the police and was arrested.I was in a jail cell with three other women I’ll talking…
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My Journey to Recovery And Finding Myself
My posts are raw and so personal. All of my entries are true Heartaches and triumphs of my recovery. I destroyed my beautiful life, broke my loving husband and shattered my beautiful little boy. I will recover. I have hope that not all is lost. I am stronger than I think.. I like my friend…
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June 12, 2022 A letter to my Husband
… A growth of understanding follows an ascending spiral rather than a straight line. – Joanna Field Letter’s Never Sent: Dear Mike, I am very dedicated to my sobriety and mental health in my recovery. My mental health I am working with a psychiatrist to address issues working with medication and therapy. And therapy I…
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Day 12 April 29, 2022
I slept 5.5 hours went to bed a little after 8:30 PM and woke up at 2:33 AM, tossed and turned (as much as you can and a twin bed) and got up around 3 AM-ish. I met marie a minute ago (3:45 AM) near the smoking area. We talked about my therapy session. I…
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April 27, 2022 A letter to my Husband
Letter’s Never Sent: Dear Mike, I will plead guilty to everything. I don’t ever remember blacking out that bad or black out anger like that. I promise I will never talk to you, write you, call you or try to be near you both ever again. You both deserve so much better. I have read…
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April 26, 2022 A letter to my Husband,
Anger conquers when unresolved. – Anonymous Letter’s Never Sent: Dear Mike, I don’t know why I’m even here. I’m not worth it. I can’t do this. Why even bother. I don’t want to be here anymore. I read the police report. I don’t deserve to be here, anywhere for that matter. I’m just not worth…
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Unknown dated letter And uncompleted letter to my Husband
Destruction. Crashing realities exploding in imperfect landings. Ouch. It’s my heart that’s breaking, for these have been my fantasies and my world. – Mary Casey Letter’s Never Sent: Dear Mike, I sit here holding hope but I know there isn’t any. Thank you for not serving legal papers to me while I’m here. I know…
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Unknown date An incomplete Letter to my Husband
If you find yourself in a hole, the first thing to do is to stop digging. – Anonymous Letter’s Never Sent: Mike, Thank you for not serving me with divorce papers, restraining orders or whatever else while I’m in here. I know we’re done. While I’m in here I try to help, but I understand…
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April 22, 2022 A letter to my Husband
Recovery is something that you have to work on every single day, and it’s something that doesn’t get a day off. -Demi Lovato Letter’s Never Sent: I got my first chip today. It’s a lot of hard work here, but I’m working the program. They keep us incredibly busy. Different group therapies, teambuilding, codependency classes,…
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April 21, 2022 A letter to my Husband and my Son
“Waiting” By Melody Beattie Wait. If the time isn’t right, the way is not clear, the answer or decision not consistent, wait. We may see a sense of urgency. We may want to resolve the issue by doing some thing – anything now, but that action is not in our best interest. Living with confusion…
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April 20, 2022 A letter to my Husband and my Son
Alcoholics Anonymous, “The Big Book”, Part Two, Chapter 3, The Housewife Who Drank at Home… “She hit her bottles in her clothes hampers and dresser drawers. In AA, she discovered she had lost nothing and found Everything.” Letter’s Never Sent Dear loves, Well I found out something interesting today. I’m not alone. Mary Avni and…
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April 19, 2022 Letter to my Husband and Son
The goal isn’t to be sober. The goal is to love yourself so much that you do not need to drink. – Anonymous Letter’s Never Sent Dear loves, It’s really nice here, thank you. Thank you for dropping off my clothes, they confiscated the shorts as they are too short. I did get to laugh…
Faith in Me, Hope for My Future & Love of My Life 