Shannon
Coon

My Journey to Recovery And Finding Myself

My posts are raw and so personal. All of my entries are true Heartaches and triumphs of my recovery. I destroyed my beautiful life, broke my loving husband and shattered my beautiful little boy. I will recover. I have hope that not all is lost. I am stronger than I think..

I like my friend (me) for what it is in her (my) heart, not for the way she (I) does (did) things. – Sandra K Lamberson

  • June 12, 2022 A letter to my Husband

    … A growth of understanding follows an ascending spiral rather than a straight line. – Joanna Field Letter’s Never Sent: Dear Mike, I am very dedicated to my sobriety and mental health in my recovery. My mental health I am working with a psychiatrist to address issues working with medication and therapy. And therapy I […] Read more

  • Day 12 April 29, 2022

    I slept 5.5 hours went to bed a little after 8:30 PM and woke up at 2:33 AM, tossed and turned (as much as you can and a twin bed) and got up around 3 AM-ish. I met marie a minute ago (3:45 AM) near the smoking area. We talked about my therapy session. I […] Read more

  • April 27, 2022 A letter to my Husband

    Letter’s Never Sent: Dear Mike, I will plead guilty to everything. I don’t ever remember blacking out that bad or black out anger like that. I promise I will never talk to you, write you, call you or try to be near you both ever again. You both deserve so much better. I have read […] Read more

  • April 26, 2022 A letter to my Husband,

    Anger conquers when unresolved. – Anonymous Letter’s Never Sent: Dear Mike, I don’t know why I’m even here. I’m not worth it. I can’t do this. Why even bother. I don’t want to be here anymore. I read the police report. I don’t deserve to be here, anywhere for that matter. I’m just not worth […] Read more

  • Unknown dated letter And uncompleted letter to my Husband

    Destruction. Crashing realities exploding in imperfect landings. Ouch. It’s my heart that’s breaking, for these have been my fantasies and my world. – Mary Casey Letter’s Never Sent: Dear Mike, I sit here holding hope but I know there isn’t any. Thank you for not serving legal papers to me while I’m here. I know […] Read more

  • Unknown date An incomplete Letter to my Husband

    If you find yourself in a hole, the first thing to do is to stop digging. – Anonymous Letter’s Never Sent: Mike, Thank you for not serving me with divorce papers, restraining orders or whatever else while I’m in here. I know we’re done. While I’m in here I try to help, but I understand […] Read more

  • June 12, 2022 A letter to my Husband

    … A growth of understanding follows an ascending spiral rather than a straight line. – Joanna Field Letter’s Never Sent: Dear Mike, I am very dedicated to my sobriety and mental health in my recovery. My mental health I am working with a psychiatrist to address issues working with medication and therapy. And therapy I […] Read more

  • Day 12 April 29, 2022

    I slept 5.5 hours went to bed a little after 8:30 PM and woke up at 2:33 AM, tossed and turned (as much as you can and a twin bed) and got up around 3 AM-ish. I met marie a minute ago (3:45 AM) near the smoking area. We talked about my therapy session. I […] Read more

  • April 27, 2022 A letter to my Husband

    Letter’s Never Sent: Dear Mike, I will plead guilty to everything. I don’t ever remember blacking out that bad or black out anger like that. I promise I will never talk to you, write you, call you or try to be near you both ever again. You both deserve so much better. I have read […] Read more

  • April 26, 2022 A letter to my Husband,

    Anger conquers when unresolved. – Anonymous Letter’s Never Sent: Dear Mike, I don’t know why I’m even here. I’m not worth it. I can’t do this. Why even bother. I don’t want to be here anymore. I read the police report. I don’t deserve to be here, anywhere for that matter. I’m just not worth […] Read more

  • Unknown dated letter And uncompleted letter to my Husband

    Destruction. Crashing realities exploding in imperfect landings. Ouch. It’s my heart that’s breaking, for these have been my fantasies and my world. – Mary Casey Letter’s Never Sent: Dear Mike, I sit here holding hope but I know there isn’t any. Thank you for not serving legal papers to me while I’m here. I know […] Read more

  • Unknown date An incomplete Letter to my Husband

    If you find yourself in a hole, the first thing to do is to stop digging. – Anonymous Letter’s Never Sent: Mike, Thank you for not serving me with divorce papers, restraining orders or whatever else while I’m in here. I know we’re done. While I’m in here I try to help, but I understand […] Read more