Faith in Me, Hope for My Future & Love of My Life

At least I have all my vitamins. I have a couple Kratom pills. I took two of them trying to stabilize my mood I won’t be able to see the psych nurse until the 15th or 17th I can’t remember so I can get my medication refilled. tonight’s the house meeting and I have to pay what I can for the rent here. I don’t know I i’m really struggling right now. I got the rental car returned. I’m trying to color right now just to keep my anxiety down. I sent Mike an email trying to ask him for some help and tell what the situation is. I used to be able to text email and mail Mike and he accepted all of it now I got a letter from the attorney actually an email from the attorney after I sent this email to Mike saying that I’m violating the order of protection. So Mike no longer accepts any correspondence from me anymore. Here’s the emails that were sent…

So that’s what I wrote and the attorney came back and I said Mike was accepting and she said he no longer is. So then there’s that but wait the day gets even better… So I leave to go get a money order to pay what I can for the rent I don’t understand their math considering I haven’t even been there a week and after the $200 I just paid they’re saying I owe $393 more. I’m a bit confused and I’m trying to have them explain to me the math it still doesn’t make sense. So here’s where we get to the big one… We’re sitting in the meeting and the girl Abby says there was a Keaton pill found outside. At this point I’m thinking of myself oh shit… Are we not allowed to take those is what’s going through my mind I mean it’s a pill it’s a vitamin it’s over-the-counter it’s not marijuana but here we go again I should just keep my mouth shut sometimes. The answer to that would be capital N capital O… No. So I said that they were mine and then I took them to try to help because their mood enhancing my anxiety I mean fuck I only took two. Let’s just say wrong answer. Because of that point I had left some 15 minutes to leave the premises I was expelled. So another girl help me get my stuff into the back of your car not all of it yet again but Sam and she takes me to the crisis center why I don’t know but she says they’ll be able to fix my medication here. I have to be at a parenting class tomorrow at 8:30 AM so I’m talking to the people at the crisis center and they said yeah it’s 24 hours but you’ll never be able to get out of here in time. So I’m trying to figure out where I’m going to go and how I’m going to get to my parenting class but if I don’t go I’m being held in contempt of court and I only have a certain time frame to get this done 45 days from the date the divorce was sent or I was served. But Polaris behavioral health crisis They really did help me out now with medication and

not being admitted however they gave me a sack lunch to eat since I hadn’t eaten dinner. Allowed me to rest for a little bit. And take me to the courthouse in the morning. One of the gentleman who works there a paramedic so nice we sat and we talked for a little bit when I got there and he said well we don’t want you to drink and I said I’m not going to I already destroyed my life I have a parenting class I have to get to the no judge is gonnaCenter, was amazing. They really did help me out now with medication and not being admitted however they gave me a sack lunch to eat since I hadn’t eaten dinner. Allowed me to rest for a little bit. And take me to the courthouse in the morning. One of the gentleman who works there a paramedic so nice we sat and we talked for a little bit when I got there and he said well we don’t want you to drink and I said I’m not going to I already destroyed my life I have a parenting class I have to get to the no judge is gonnaThey really did help me out now with medication and not being admitted however they gave me a sack lunch to eat since I hadn’t eaten dinner. Allowed me to rest for a little bit. And take me to the courthouse in the morning. One of the gentleman who works there a paramedic so nice we sat and we talked for a little bit when I got there and he said well we don’t want you to drink and I said I’m not going to I already destroyed my life I have a parenting class I have to get to the no judge is going to Let you off the hook of not for that kind of thing. My kid is more important my life is more important than drinking. So that’s what happened.