Day 97 July 24, 2022

I still have yet to unpack at this new place. My alarm went off at 4 AM I woke up at 5 AM. Everyone does seem fairly nice. I started to do my chore and since today was deep clean I got a new chore. Funny I was assigned a chore I didn’t even have to do yesterday. I don’t know what sure I will get! Hopefully an easy 1 PM bathroom. Oh well! 90 meetings and in 90 days! All the other places were five meetings a week (that included church and house meeting as well as sponsor meetings) not here! An AA meeting today. So far I’ve already been to two meetings. EDI (easy does it) Isn’t bad. Charlotte from the last house runs and chairs the Sunday meeting at 4 PM. I didn’t get his last this time getting to and from the meeting. I think I figured it out well maybe! So hopefully next walk will be better! A lot better, I hope/know I know! I’ve been writing a letter in my head to Mike and my son; but more so Mike and it will be a long one. So I thought I’d start here in my journal.

Dear Mike,

I watched an episode of expedition unknown about Amelia Earhart and thought of you. Then an episode of torque today and I thought of you again. I think of you sitting recline on the couch playing on the iPad or doing your emails at the island during the week. I think about you often. They’re not speaking to one another is killing me! I think about you so often. I wonder how everyone and everything is going/doing. I hope and pray well! I hope Patty and Brandon are good and Brandon has gotten good news. I hope eighth grade graduation was awesome I bet our little man did amazing and look greatI watched an episode of expedition unknown about Amelia Earhart and thought of you. Then an episode of torque today and I thought of you again. I think of you sitting recline on the couch playing on the iPad or doing your emails at the island during the week. I think about you often. They’re not speaking to one another is killing me! I think about you so often. I wonder how everyone and everything is going/doing. I hope and pray well! I hope Patty and Brandon are good and Brandon has gotten good news. I hope eighth grade graduation was awesome I bet our little man did amazing and looked great!

Do you remember why we named him what we did? I do his name stands for loyalty, good luck, wise, and loves life. Doesn’t he stand up to his name? I think even has a little P party still stood up to his name. We named him well. Very strong name for an amazing young man. I am glad you are taking good care of him! How are you? I worry about you! I’m so sorry I gave you so much on your plate. Even writing this upsets me – makes me uneasy, as I am afraid I’ve lost you forever! I pray and hope It isn’t true. I will prove to you I am still a wonderful person. I am still a good person and I’m still the girl you met and talk to you on the dock. I just beg you will still give me a chance. I love you Mike. I love you and I still hold hope.

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