Faith in Me, Hope for My Future & Love of My Life

I slept 7 1/2 hours feels great. It’s 5:40 AM so yeah a little bit late. Was supposed to work out, but too much to do since I slept in so late today. Apartment clean, laundry started. Tracie has strep throat so I am super careful in our apartment.

8:20 AM to 8:50 AM daily focus with Krista

How am I feeling mentally?

Jumbled – sad about a few things I must do

How am I feeling physically?

Well…

How am I spiritually?

I haven’t prayed in a couple days

What are my goals for today?

I guess call my sponsor

Affirmation/gratitude/greatness?

Everyone for being here and all their hugs I got a lot of closure on one item yesterday!

Just for today:

Inventory

“We review our past performance and our present behavior to see what we want to keep and what we want to discard.”

Basic Text, p. 29

As each day winds to a close, many of us reflect on the past twenty-four hours and consider how we can live differently in the future. It’s easy for our thoughts to remain trapped in the mundane: change the oil in the car, keep the living room clean, or empty the litter box. Sometimes it takes a special effort to jog our thinking out of the daily rut and onto a higher track.

One simple question can put us on the high road: What do we think our Higher Power wants for us tomorrow? Maybe we need to improve our flagging conscious contact with the God of our understanding. Perhaps we’ve been uncomfortable in our job or our relationship, holding on only out of fear. We might be hiding some troubling defect of character, afraid to share it with our sponsor. The question is, in what parts of our lives do we really want to grow?

As each day ends, we find it beneficial to take some moments to spend time with our Higher Power. We can begin to reflect on what will benefit our program of spiritual growth most in the coming day. We think about the areas in which we have grown recently, and target areas that still require work. What more fitting way to end the day?

Just for today: I will set aside some time at the end of the day to commune with my Higher Power. I will review the past day, meditating on what stands between me and my Higher Power’s will for my life.

My inventory for the day Mike and Decision Point’s day of Seymour equal separation/Apartments/insurance. I must pray …I have turned in my plan. Dave Seymour just needs to call Mike and tell him. So Inventory, my sadness! I love that man and my son but I’m taking inventory I must let them go! So it will be sad today.

letter’s copies made and given:

1 PM with Jess

We looked at the sobriety experience, destiny sober living, and sanctuary sober living all in Phoenix. I like Camelback Recovery and Spero.

Just was given all the information to call Mike. Dave Seymour said he already spoke to Mike and he wants to know what to do financially. It will get done and we will see. Hopefully it goes well. I’m very sad about our love dying. My heart is broken. I can’t do much now. Tempe here I come. I’m not happy about that heat, but I will live.

2 PM to 3:30 PM Cinema Therapy with Wade & Healing Minds with Andy

Emotional regulation

Keeping your emotions in check! Working on emotions – uncomfortable! It could cause drinking in order to deal with what we/are feeling.

4 PM PHP/recovery in charge with Gregson

Today I earned recovery in charge/PHP. So I will have a different schedule, more cell phone privileges, I can have visitors even though that won’t happen, more walking privileges, more time to work on job search, domestic violence classes or anger management classes. In fact I need to actually sign up for those when I get some money.

Hopefully I will get more accomplished, while I am here I have a lot to accomplish. Seriously a lot of stuff to do. Worked on recovery and charge worksheet, timetable we must turn in for Gregson and or Troy every day! It’s so crazy! A daily schedule turned in I’m not sure for what it’s not like we go far or have a lot to do… This must be a life skill making plans and writing them down. I’m pretty sure I got that one down that I’m almost positive I do! Almost to an OCD level.